I ate chocolate chips. Bread. About 10 cookies. Dinner, Lunch, breakfast, strawberries... so much.
I feel sick from eating so much. And worse... i feel like I'm going to get fat. And worse I haven't finished the essay due tomorrow. And its getting late. It is late. Its going to be a long night.
I just want to lay down and listen to Seahorse by Johnathan Coulton. I'm in one of those moods. I feel alone, useless, fat, unwanted, unwonted. The usual.
I have sugar headaches when I eat this much unhealthy food. I don't really call them headaches because its so much weaker than the physical pain I put myself through with exercise or the lightheadedness I get from not eating enough. Its nothing.
I need to write 3 essays and I'll have all the time in the world to mess myself up and write all I want and do things I actually want to. Right now some part of me said I needed the bread to do this.
stay beautiful
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I know the feeling I hate indulging. Sometimes though you're so lightheaded and dizzy that you need to just give in so that you can focus on what you need to get done.
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