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I feel better when the focus shits away from me.

I no longer feel persecuted by the light of the sun.
But I only get this reprieve because the shadow has fallen on another.
My sister almost died.


This is old news

might as well post it anyways



stay beautiful

Need sleep, sorta but not tired not willing to admit it  I hate how attractive people can get. And then me... not even close. No reason to be desired. People say that I am brilliant. They just don't know how to do math.  
Lets move to other places.
Who even writes these things?

Azura-
Doubt-
Hello my dear friend! The only thing we need is a guiding hand which rests in our own sometimes and wishes it well. I am loyal, caring, sociable  woman, and I am good listener. I like active leisure, walking, learning new things and meeting new people. www.azalea.in.ua I need reliable and strong man in my life. I open my heart to my future darling, I would offer my heart to him in hope to  share all things life brings us. Au revoir Azura

Who are you even speaking to? Why did I get this message? Why am I lonely enough to read it... and wish it was for me when... at best it was mistakenly sent to me.  
Veronyk-
Reverie-
How do you do! I'm here to find my beloved man and to share my heart with him. I know that we are miles apart, but if my man looks deep within his heart, he will see that I am there with my love I want to share. I hope he will appreciate that he means much for me http://avril.in.ua I hope that together we will cope with all troubles and difficulties that come along.  I hope to find my sweetheart here. if you think we should get along, drop me a line Veronyk
Why?
No one wants me... Why did you... Even send this to make it seem like something wants me I guess if I had money I could be wanted. That someone could con me into clicking into the link and sifting away money.   So many of these messages... and these are only the ones that aren't obviously spam. Now that I have deleted them all I'm right back where I was before. Alone  

stay beautiful

The bid for happiness

What do you want? If you can name something you can likely name the amount of money or effort that will lead you there.

I want to lose weight.
Just takes less calories in then out.
I also feel that there could miracle drugs to accelerate the process. Like meth.
If I was to take meth my reason would be to lose weight. I don't need transient pleasure or even to have the mindblowing experience a drug can take you through.


I think I've gained weight.
I've at the very least lost motivation and energy. Which is what I used to think kept the weight off of me.
I'm so weak and ashamed of my body now.
My eyes leak with tears because I spend so much time in front of this screen. Sometimes because I feel pathetic, but usually just because I've spent too much of myself here.

Its beginning to warm here. I'll soon hear the complaints of others and the whine of Air Conditioning wherever I go. And I'll be fine with the sunshine because I'll remember how it felt in the winter to feel like I would never be warm. I'll let the heat burn me and singe away my sweat because to me I finally don't have to try to feel ... what is the word I am looking for? I mean to say something comforting. Something like complete. But I know that warmth doesn't change anything in me. It is just preferable to the cold. I find it amusing how uncomfortable warmth is to others, when I don't feel hot until the temperature is much higher.
And even when it is too hot for me I can still function in the heat.


Waiting and letting time pass seems to be a hobby of mine.
And because of that I can't get anything else done on time



stay beautiful