My type

I look at that picture... I'm not that thin.

Shoot.
This isn't good.
I have to change something because... because I need to make myself a safe person to talk to.

The weekend is coming, and I have some commitments I haven't talked about on here in detail.

I'm fasting tomorrow. Its a secret though... don't tell anyone.
But I have to do it... to protect people.

Wonder how school is going to go... I have 2 quiz/test things tomorrow.

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Armada is a beast

I feel fat at the moment.
But its okay, I can live with it. I have plenty of time and know I'm going to do something tomorrow... I just hope that includes homework. Responsibility is such an aggravating thing...
It would be so much easier to just twist my body all day into something painful... that would be wonderful. I've been avoiding the cold (how do you avoid something like that, it is EVERYWHERE), and getting some pain in. Just a little... I got to the point it hurt from one armed push-ups, and then I let it settle for most of the day while at school... At school I did 2 with my left hand: it felt so good.

Still I've been unprepared, lazy... the usual.
Hope everyone else out there feels fine...


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Easy to lose

I lost my phone within my house.

I have a really easy life, but all that convenience makes it easy to lose things important to me. I can get lazy and eat, or huddle in my homemade warmth. I'll take my car because the sky is grey, but mostly because I don't want to think about how difficult it is to push myself. I'll do a little bit of work and then feel like I accomplished all of it. I'm losing this battle. I am powerless under the reign of my luxury.

I dream of a day when I can't afford everything I need, so that I have to choose one over the other always.

Right now I'm not making that decision.
It is too hard... or is it?

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